Saturday, 11 July 2020

Not a dream just some thoughts

Who says you can't make friends online?
  Well, whoever they are wrong. I was reminded today of one of my online friends who sadly took his own life. https://twitter.com/LadyJayGames/status/783416609658531841

He was a very talented musician call Nathan Wills we meet online about five years ago 
when I saw him in a dude like Hellas video.
 I went to his youtube channel and love his music right away. One day in his vlog he was talking about keek a video Twitter app if you see what I  mean. 
He would do this on a daily basis. I would answer him. 
We sent messages via keek and Twitter and I hang out in his room on Ustream we would talk about everything.  Anyway, Six months in he seems a bit off not so chatty as before I knew something was wrong. 
But couldn't put my finger on it. he did this vlog https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtYWMNoGt7Y 
then he did this keek https://www.keek.com/keek/cI7oaab
this was on Friday, July 27
The day he took his own life.
i miss him every day 


Wednesday, 11 July 2018

Just woke from a nap and strange dream George Micheal telling me not to buy into the black grass theory. but to spread the purple love and to receive kindness & love, things smelling of roses will bring me what I need. I know how strange is it and no im not on anything.

really not sure what it's all about but I am guessing the purple love has something to do with a twitch as im thinking of only doing that and giving up on youtube.
and doing so I can build on getting my own little group together.

when I googled black grass theory George Michael
I get this https://www.theguardian.com/music/2018/jan/07/george-michael-memorial-garden-threat-resident-row


and this https://www.theguardian.com/music/2009/dec/05/george-michael-interview-music-sex-drugs

just putting this here just in case sometime soon I need to look back on this
find all my links here http://ladyjaygames.wixsite.com/ladyjay


update 11/07/2020

omg just looking at memories on Facebook I just almost worked out what this. is ok so the "black glass theory" still not sure what that is but spreading the purple love is differently got be about my twitch/twitter as my twitter colour is purple friends that i made over the last 6 m. where I have had lots of love and kindness. izzys SWA comes over yesterday who had a rose smelling hand gel and news of a new bed for izzy and forms for the family fund. where we can get sensory toys for her room just got work out"black glass theory"

Saturday, 3 September 2016

My life book dream

(by putting photos in I am hoping it helps you see the dream-like I have )

Last night's dream was very vivid. I was sat in a very long and narrow white room, a bit like a waiting room a bit like this.
When I looked up my friend Ariana  was there (FYI, not her real name it's her online name )
anyway she shows me a very long brown scrapbook and when I opened it, forgotten it was photos of my life
like was forgotten and things I missed and they were one side my muggle life and the other was Hogwarts life . and Ariana was talking to me but I could not grip on to what she was saying next thing I know she is on an old tv.

I try to tune into what she is saying  but can't the tv flickers and up pops my friend Mcchickie another online friend she stood there looking at me and she dressed like 
she is a big fan of Wicked and that's why I see her like this 
 she told me about how everyone who has passed is pleased with everything I'm am doing, I been worried about what my mum would be thinking about how life going for me at the moment. 
I look down at the book and there is a photo of my cat Bealie 

he on the other side too 4 years now, but he speaks to me with a Phil Mitchell voice. the guy from Eastenders. just in case you don't know what he sounds like (https://youtu.be/kqcd3X5jnuE)
 telling me all these things that he always wanted to let me know, like the fact he was glad when my hubby comes along, that night to my house for his dinner  (he was not my hubby at the time obviously) and thanks me for feeding him so well. 
It's at this point I woke up turned off the light and went back to sleep. 
I'm still in this room but I open a door to the right of me and inside it looks like this ( made in the sims 4 ).

 In this room on the wall are shields of things that I have done, but one is missing and there are lots of letters on tables and lots of gold and a set of blueprints. 
I turn to look away and stood next to me is Toby Turner ( he's in my dreams a lot ) his hand is outstretched to me.  
He smiles at me and says "If you could spend one year in perfect happiness but afterwards would remember nothing of the experience, would you spend a year that way?"
I look at him and say what? 
The tv flickers back on I turn my head to see who or what it is, this time,  It's the gov from  life on mars ( just in case you don't know what he looks like )


spoiler alert










 he plays like an angel that helps dead coppers move over to the next life  

  when I see him in my dreams I see him as a messenger or a guide as you will 
and he asks " Which has more power, love or fear?"
 my answer to that is Love wins Always 
then he asks "What’s the difference between ‘living’ and ‘existing?’"
my answer is that not a quote from Oscar Wilde? 
he then says"If your life was a novel, what would be the title and how would your story end?
I look blankly at him.
and say is my life going to end then?

 I turn around and look for Toby but he gone and standing in his place is my daughter's godmother Niphai she says you're a lot clever than you think you are, you will work out this puzzle. 
and you will do it in the next 24 hours. 
next to her appears a big clock but instead of 12 hours on it, it has 24 .
I hear a small voice and it's Chrlid another online friend who is a Hufflepuff she says don't worry I can found out anything you need to know.

my gaming partners Tizzy maii dressed as a banana and Dan who for some reason is dressed in a black all in one that has data scrolling around it like in the Matrix both say we here for you too.

I told you this dream was strange 
and then there all this clicking sound and I look around and random faces are on the tv and each click is them liking what is going on. 
Then there a flash of light stood on a Circle of light is my daughter calling me. This is where I wake up to my daughter telling me she needs to go to the toilet.

what does this all this mean? I just don't know
 I don't even know what the puzzle is that I have got to work out and how are my online friends going to help.
I am hoping that something or someone going to show me soon 
until next time live, love, learn and stay safe. 


update ........ 14/04/2017
had this dream over and over since i first posted this back in September in 2016  
I still see all my online friends as it is above but now after the flash on night i am by a very white wall,
I look around and people are set on big red sofas.
and as i walk around trying to find people i may know but all i see are there face are clocks
all pointing to 23 hours to go. I am running around trying to find someone that doesn't have this face then someone grabs my arm. It's  Mini Ladd and his friend  Terroriser
telling me that it's all too late for them pointing to the people with the clock faces come with us we'll help you. we run thoe a door and we stood in a room where all the walls are made of glass and mini say to me you need to do is roll over to go to sleep,
 I say but i'm asleep as I'm dreaming and bam i am wide awake again. 
will update as and when it happens. 





Tuesday, 30 August 2016

No dreams

Last night I had no dreams at all. But woke up feeling better than I felt in a long time. Maybe napping for 3 hours having dinner and going back to bed helps. Well, time for me to go to sleep now hoping that I have an awesome dream. Don't let me forget to tell you all about the dream I had about the house I now live in and how it looked years before I moved here and the one about 165 a house I did live in years after that lead me to my daughter school until then stay safe and sound and sleep well

Monday, 29 August 2016

the normal dream

So last night my dream was my normal dream.
but you, my dear reader, don't know what that is so I shall tell you what it is.
many of you reading this may not know who Toby Turner aka Tobuscus he is a fab youtuber that does vlogs and gaming videos.
and us his fans, of toby or at least the small group of fans, are called familybuscus
.

this is the guy I am talking about 


anyway, he is sat in his front room on a big white sofa a bit like this one.  
Anyway as I walk to him he looks up and smiles at me and say hello Lady, Where have you been I been waiting for you. I walk to him down some steps, I look at him and in his hand, he has An iPad.
 He then says to me by the way as I was waiting for  you I found your fanfic ( you can too right here  FYI it XXX rated ( please do not read if you are Toby or Toby's mum or any way part of Toby's family thank you )  https://tobyturnerfanficbyladylake.blogspot.com )

anyway, I look up and say What!! he smiles and then it jumps and am at the top of the stairs and Tobys looking at me and says Where have you been I been waiting for you. I have been reading your fanfic it not that bad. but you have not finished it, what happens?

 I say would you like me to show you? he smiles and pats the seat next to him.

that's when the dream jumps again and am walking along a hallway 





it has doors running along the walls each one takes me to another dream but the one I been getting lately is as I open the door it leads to 
  
this street that is in Canterbury Kent.
 why this street I hear you ask I don't know, Is the answer
but it's the way to the  Cathedral.(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canterbury_Cathedral)
and yes you're right it could mean something about finding my way to God or reminding me this looks like Diagon Alley. 
my dream book says Dreaming of a cathedral generally has something to do with how much of a control freak you are. 
but I can't be that much of one if I am standing outside in the street away from it 
also, sometimes as I am walking down a musical number will start up normally 

Half a sixpence

which makes total sense seeing most of it was filmed here in kent and it was one of my mum's fav films 
but it could also mean something about my love for Toby 
anyway until tomorrow my dear reader stay safe and fell the love

Sunday, 28 August 2016

The start of my dream diary

So reading Harry Potter to my daughter at the moment yes she maybe only 6 but I think she likes it. Anyway, Harry & Ron are set for divination homework a dream diary in Order of the Phoenix's. So I thought I would do it cos my dream is somewhat strange to say and I feel the need to share so if that sounds like something you would read feel free to join me
last night dream Sunday morning 28/08/16 woke from a dream about an ex-friend getting married again to her husband she married to now I am not sure what that's about but she was getting ready to go from the police station in Margate And I was in a new house that was cosy and warm and it didn't matter how much gas I was using. why it would be about tan I just don't know. maybe it means something deep or  that  I eat a funny whelk (harry potter ref)
FYI it may not always make sense but I do feel the need to write them down and maybe I find a pattern in my dreams who know.
If I come across some sort of meaning to my dreams i will put them in. Until the morning I wish you all good health happiness and love xx